PLEASE COME BACK..!!! :((

Kaushal, the decent and honest guy.. He is really a nice guy.. he don’t have so many friends as he had to change is schools 2-3 times. Prince, one of Kaushal’s best friends. Kaushal and Prince both were together till their graduation. Kaushal works in an export company as computer operator and prince used to look after his father’s shop. Kaushal, usually busy with his office work, but he still used to go to prince’ place after his office to spend some time with his best friend. Kaushal spend an hour or one and a half hour daily with his best friend, he never refuse to go to his best friend.

They both share their whole day things with each other. Kaushal can’t digest anything, so he say all the things to Prince even the things, which he don’t have to tell him, poor guy.. :) Prince is also the same but he his little bit clever so he keeps some talks to himself only. Poor Kaushal always think that they both are same and they share everything to each other.

Kaushal always asks Prince for outing or for do some fun on weekends, but Prince always used to refuse his approvals as he don’t have permission from home to go out for all that funs. Kaushal understands prince’s circumstances, so he never forced Prince for the same.

The time was passing day by day and it was the final year of their graduation, Prince had done with his 2nd year exams, he scored well in exams. Kaushal was still waiting for his results. Suddenly Kaushal felt that there is something wrong with Prince. So, he tried to find out the cause of his best friends changed behaviour.

Prince’s behaviour was changing day by day. Kaushal was worried for this; he can’t understand why Prince is behaving so odd. One day Kaushal got to know that prince is now busy with his new net friend Rahul and he used to go out with his new friend. Rahul becomes his new best friend in just few days. Prince don’t have time for his old friend Kaushal but he has time for roam with his new friend Rahul even now prince has no limitations and restrictions from his home as before. He is free to go wherever and whenever he wants.

Kaushal feels really bad that prince never accepted to go with him for outing or for roam but now he used to tell a lie to roam with his new friend Rahul, even now Prince has a girlfriend, her name is Shelja. Prince often go to meet her gf by making some fake reasons.

Kaushal feels really jealous to Prince’s new friends. He don’t have any bad thought for Shailja and Rahul, he just want his friend Prince to keep some time for him too as Kaushal always used to do so. Kaushal tried to make Prince understand that Prince must have to keep balance to all his friends but the results were totally opposite. Prince starting avoiding his old friend Kaushal and don’t even a do a msg to Kaushal as he always used to do.

Kaushal felt really bad and he is not ready for this change, still he tried to talk with Prince, but Prince has no time to talk with him. Prince is simply avoiding Kaushal. He stops talking to Kaushal.

Now Kaushal is all alone, because he has only one friend and his only friend is now busy with his new friends. Kaushal is still waiting for his best friend to come back. Whenever the msg come to his mobile he just thought of Prince as he is expecting Prince’s to come back with his whole heart.. :(( Kaushal is ready to forget his best friends all mistakes but do Prince also think so . . . .???? Will Prince come back..??? Will Prince understand Kaushal’s feelings... his friendship...???

Well there is lot of questions but does someone have the answers of these questions..?? :((

Isn't it's Strange..??

I always wanna write something, whatever I feel, whatever I think, whatever I do etc.. etc.. but never tried so, as I take it in a joke. Today, first time I want to start this, but guess what I just on my PC and was about to write something, suddenly my mumma came and remind me that I have to go to the tailor and bring back my clothes. So I turned off my PC and went to tailor. After Half an hour, I came back and thought of writing, but when I set on PC, it was a power cut, and I again have to turn my PC off. I was quite disappointed, but as told by someone that “where there is a will, there is a way”. So, I took my dairy and start writing with my favorite Parker Pen as I was really damm upset and need someone to share it. But no one was there, so I thought of writing whatever I was feeling. I really wanna change my mood as I don’t like to be sad.
I wake up late in the morning, it was about 10.30 am. It’s a friendship day. I don’t know why I wake up with a upset mind. I thought maybe it’s a stress. My younger bro was watching the Movie “Luck”. I thought it’s a good way to cheer up myself. So, I watch it with my brother. I was feeling good but it was for the limited period, as when the movie end, I was again the same with a damm serious face.
As I told you that it’s a friendship day today, but it was so sad that I don’t have a single friend, whom I can give a friendship band or may get a friendship band from him/her. It was not like this that I don’t have friends. I have some really good friends but none of them is like the one, I needed. I also have some good friends on net and they are really special for me. But still there is no one like, I needed. I was sitting on bed thinking of it and ask myself, that do I really have a single friend with whom I can share my feelings or thoughts, or a single person who can give me his/her shoulder whenever I feel cry. And the answer is, no..!! I don’t have a single person like this, neither friends nor relaters or my parents. I was again in a deep sorrow, I was just feeling jealous to those who had such a person but I was happy that atleast my friends have such a person, but still I am also quite jealous to them.
I was thinking about this and have a little fight with my mumma just because I was not feeling good. I tried to find out the answer that why I feel so lonely. Is it there is a something wrong inside me or I don’t deserve such friends. I was teasing me a lot and I’m getting so much depressed too. Suddenly I felt that it may be because of my no trust on anyone as I never express my feelings towards them. I never share my feelings with the others, but it was just because that I don’t trust them.
I don’t know what to do, I was getting more confused and tried to find out the answer that why I do not share my feelings & thoughts with the persons I have in shape of friends. And with my best efforts I get the answer of this too. It was all because of that I tried to share my feelings with them but they were never be interested in it. They were showing that they are listing but they were not, as they always cut my sentence and start talking about something else or start talking to each other to avoid my words. I said this many times to my friends that atleast let me finish my words, but they pretend that yes, we are listening you may continue. But I never continue again as I know that they all are think about their selves and are not able to listen me.
I don’t know why they always do so. I am always there to listen them whenever they need me even if a stranger need me to listen him/her. I do listen him/her with full of patience. But I can’t understand that If I can listen to everyone, If I can suggest them suggestion whenever they wants, then why can’t they do so. They never did so. They just thanks to me to listen them and to solve their problems. But there is no one who listen me, who can suggests me, who can show me the right way whenever I get confused. But there were no answer of this question. But still I never blamed my friends for this. I just do my job, I just make our friendship healthy by listening to them.
I am happy with this that atleast I am doing my work perfectly without caring and expecting anything from them. But sometimes I really feel bad about this. So, I thought of writing and while writing it, I am feeling really better, atleast I can sleep well tonight..!!
Well at the end I just wanna wish you all a Happy Friendship Day..!! Keep Enjoying..!!